I miss my mummyT.T

Gosh…
today’s only the second day that my mum has been away but im missing her like crap alreadyyyyy:/
No one to nag at me to sleep,
no one to bully my dad together with,
no one to laugh at the stupid things i say,
no one to watch tv with me,
no one to nag at me to study and think that my exams are on every single day,
no one for me to nag at to come home early….

plus today,
i watered the plants,
folded the clothes and transported all the stuff to the various bedrooms
and tomorrow I’m gonna wash and dry the clothes.
I really kinda know what being a housewife feels like now!
and I really can understand how hard it is for my mum to do all of it esp since she has to work
and that her work has been piling up.
:/

oh well..
I BETTER START MUGGING:/

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick and think of you
Caught up in circles, confusion is nothing new
Flashback, warm nights, almost left behind
Suitcase of memories time after

Sometimes you picture me I’m walking too far ahead
You’re calling to me, I can’t hear what you said
And then you say go slow, I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

If you’re lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I’ll be waiting
Time after time

If you’re lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I’ll be waiting
Time after time

After my pictures fade and darkness has turned to grey
Watching through windows you’re wondering if I’m okay
Secrets stolen from deep inside, the drum beat’s out of time

If you’re lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I’ll be waiting
Time after time

You say go slow, I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

If you’re lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I’ll be waiting
Time after time

If you’re lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I will be waiting!
Time after time

If you’re lost you can look and you’ll
Really, really, really, really find me time after time
Whoa, if you fall I will catch you, I’ll be waiting
Time after time

Say, if you’re lost you can look and you
Really, really, really, really, really, really, find me
Hey, if you fall I will catch you, I’ll be waiting
Time after time

Say, time after time, how long, how long
Time after time, how long will I love
Time after time, how long, how long
Time after time, how long, how long

Time after time, I’ll be loving you always
I’ll be loving you always, I’ll be loving you always
I’ll be loving you always, I’ll be loving you always

老母darling take care and come back safe!!!!!!
關家的小公主等待您回來!

love,
jane

that little girl inside all of us.

I was just watching this drama on my rest day (yesterday which was exactly 9mins ago)
and in it one of the ideas that the main character had for an advertisement campaign was that all women have a little girl inside of us.

We all have that little girl inside of us although some of us would deny it to the death..
As we grow older, that little girl seems to hide deeper and deeper in the recesses of our minds as we strive to become more sophisticated, elegant and mature – just how the world wants us to be.
No more crazy things, squealing at every single thing, begging attention from everyone around us..
Sometimes, just sometimes, we secretly let that little girl loose and go crazy!
I wanna keep my inner little girl.
Sometimes I just wanna stay little when things are simple
and my only worry is that my brother is going to steal my candy.
I know that’s not possible and that people are going to judge and by now they would go “Oh she’s getting emo again.”,
but you know what?
I couldnt care less anymore.
I’m entitled to my own opinions, my own regrets, my own sorrows, my own joys, my own little girl moments.
I wanna live my life happy, doing the things i wanna do.
As Annie says “做什麼是自己開心就好!”

I still remember the days when I’d beg my mum to buy those poofy white dresses from the departmental store for me to wear just because I wanted to feel like a princess or dress like a bride – meaning I had someone special who loved me.
Looking back at those pictures,
I LOOKED HORRID!
but i just wanted to be pretty hahahhaa.

I still remember the first time my uncle taught me how to swing.
Just soaring into the air made me feel like I could stretch out wings to fly…
that the sky was limitless and all for me to explore.
That no matter whether I swung back to earth,
I could still swing back to see that sky again.

I still remember when my life was still so simple,innocent and happy.

Now, my life is still happy, full of laughter and good friends but things arent so easy and simple anymore.. and obviously not innocent.
I still have my little girl moments though:)
Like when I see cute stuff I just wanna get it and buy it immediately hahaha.
I go crazy over hairbands.
and like how i was vain when i was still a little girl,
I’m even more vain now!!!!
hahaha.
I never used to be when I was still in crescent.

I admit people look at me and still think i’m in JC or even sec school and from the outside,
I look just like a little girl..
but the girl on the inside is pretty much mature,
attuned to her own thoughts and wanderings in this big complex world,
trying to find a place in society that is carved out for her,
to find a group of good friends who will stick with her through thick and thin,
to find a boy,
who’d love her till he’s willing to sacrifice everything for her.
On the inside, that little girl is not so little anymore..
and sometimes I wish I could have a bit more of that little girl on the inside.

so anyway,
saw this on roy’s fb page and I’m gonna copy and paste this here.
HOPEFULLY people can read it cause it’s in chinese! hahahaha.

老公就是要找这样,女生一定很幸福

1:无论何时何地都会很亲切的叫你宝贝或者亲爱的。
2:逛街时,不厌其烦的陪你逛到脚抽筋。还笑嘻嘻的关心你累不累。
3:你在身边不抽烟。不喝酒。外出应酬也会为了你而少喝酒。
4:做的一手好菜,就是不让你下厨房,说你做饭怎么不好吃,其实是担心你被油烟熏到。
5:吃完饭抢着刷碗,埋怨你洗得不干净。其实是怕你伤到手。
6:捧着零食陪你一起看他并不喜欢的片子,一边看一边喂你吃零食。
7:你睡觉时,会帮你把踢掉的被子盖好。
8:每天都会重复很多话,让你烦。其实他只是为了关心笨笨的不会照顾自己的你。
9:总吵着说你这不好那不好。其实再他心里你是最好的。
10:散步时,会和你十指相扣,牵着你过马路。
11:每月至少和你闹一次矛盾,目的是让你知道。你在他的心里有多重要。
12:愿意在他父母面前说你怎么怎么好。
13:有一个知己,而且你熟悉。
14:常对你说:“为了我,不许不开心”
15:什么事情都不会瞒你,包括前女友来找他。因为他相信你。
16:同样大的年龄,你永远比其他人开心和美丽。
17:为了不让你做家务,要和你猜拳,你出剪子,他出布。
18:买衣服。吃饭都会会征求你的意见。
19:闲来无事,陪你聊聊天。谈你们的孩子以后叫什么名字。
20:有爱心,会养宠物逗你开心。
21:和你朋友一起吃饭,他的表现总是让你很自豪。
22:你做错事情,总要和你争论一翻然后他会道歉说“:宝贝我错了。”
23:手机24小时开机。确保你任何时候都能找到他。
24:更喜欢默默的聆听你的抱怨。
25:记忆力很差,但是他对你的承诺,你对他的要求他却怎么都不会忘记。
26:爱唱歌,即使五音不全也会为你唱你喜欢听的歌。
27:很有上进心。
28:知道你喜欢什么讨厌什么。
29:吵架总是他先认错。
30:知道你和你父母的生日。
31:每天都会做好可口的早餐送到你床边。
32:跟你父母通电话会说:“伯父(伯母)你们放心,我会好好照顾你们家宝贝的……”
33:每天睡觉前会讲笑话给你听。
34:睡的比你晚一点,醒的比你早一点。
35:从来不要求你要怎么怎么对他好。
36:偶尔会给你个小惊喜。
37:手机上你的号码是第一个。
38: 不管多忙都会发信息告诉你。他想你。
39:每次打电话都要求你先挂电话。
40:从来不在乎你的体重是不是增加了。
41:会在你面前撒娇。
42:听到你说减肥,他会做很多好吃的,然后告诉你有我在你就不需要减肥。
43:知道你化妆品的牌子。
44:会陪你哭陪你笑。
45:会买很多你爱吃的零食给你。
46:会帮你洗脚。
47:你的照片随身带在身上。
48:在你面前像个孩子一样。
49:你喜欢的衣服。他会毫不犹豫的帮你买下来。
50:你的生日,情人节或者什么纪念日总会买花给你。
51:不希望你受到一点点委屈。
52:永远都相信你。
53:生气时绝对不会和你吵架。
54:是个醋坛子。爱吃醋,但是绝对不会因为吃醋和你闹不开心。
55:记得你每个月的特殊时期。
56:吵架时绝对不说“分手”二字。
57:吵架时,你说了分手他绝对会努力的哄你,因为他知道你说的是气话。
58:成熟又不缺乏幽默。
59:有男子汉气概但是没有大男子主义。
60:天塌了,他会给你顶着。
61:说不清楚为什么爱你,爱你什么,可就是非常爱你。
62:你问他:“你能爱我永远吗?”他会说:“我不敢保证,但是我敢肯定的是,在我生命终结之前,我会一直这么爱你的。”

i really want a guy like that just add in two more things.
1.He must place God in no.1 priority.
2.He shouldnt smoke. He shouldnt drink too much either.

hahahaha.

Anyway…
I MISS MY MUM!:/
she left for m’sia early this morning, waking me up at 5 am just to ask to borrow my cam>.<
when she’s not home I have to help her water her plants, kill cockroaches ( ok fine.. got my bro to kill that stupid one),
clear the dustbins, wash, hang and fold the clothes while the GUYS IN THE FAMILY DO ZILTCH.
HEY! I HAVE TO STUDY TOO K! hmmphs.
oh well hahaha.
that’s what little girls are made for:)

Just to end this post off,
here’s this little poem for you:))

An excerpt from what folks are made of

What are little babies made of, made of?
What are little babies made of?
Diapers and crumbs and sucking their thumbs;
That’s what little babies are made of?

What are little boys made of, made of?
What are little boys made of?
Snips and snails and puppy-dog tails;
That’s what little boys are made of.                                              And such are…

What are little girls made of, made of?
What are little girls made of?
Sugar and spice and everything nice;
That’s what little girls are made of.

What are young men made of, made of?
What are young men made of?
Sighs and leers and crocodile tears;
That’s what young men are made of.

What are young women made of, made of?
What are young women made of?
Rings and jings and other fine things;
That’s what young women are made of.

love,
jane

The weather is sooooo cold that I just feel like putting on a scarf and just snuggling into bed.
haha.
*snuggle snuggle snuggle*
I had a really awesome dream last night.
it was really really really sweet and I felt so loved:)
sigh…
just thinking about it makes me happy:)))

AHHHHHHHHHH.
a cup of hot cocoa would hit the spot right about now:)

PPDA I’LL TACKLE YOU LATER!!!!
for now i’ll just…..
SLACK!:D

love,
jane

Today’s a brief reprive from the coming storm.just gonna relax a bit for today…
Bought two more hairbands to reward myself;)))))) see my awesome possum collection!:D

Christmas is coming!!!
Oh I can’t wait!:)
Can’t wait for my Cambodia trip too:) eggcited to the max!:)

Had lunch with Pb just now and let’s just say…
He’s still as retarded as ever!:DDD

Love,
Jane

Sometimes I feel like I’m walking around with a perpetual raincloud in my head.
Oh and plus a sun inside there too
and everyday it’s WORLD WAR III.
The sian-ness and the optimistic preppy side are fighting one another, all weapons out.
It’s especially so since exams are coming.
I really hate myself when i’m like this
and I really want to thank my cell group for tolerating with the insaness that is me.
I get all irritable, annoyed, cranky and what not when exams are coming cause the stress and tiredness (plus anger at myself for the fact that I keep procrastinating)…
plus I’m quite annoyed that my dad organised a family gathering on the 17th when both my bro and I have exams coming soon.
RAWRRRRRR (that’s the storm cloud in my head thundering)
as of now,
the only thing I can do is to mug hard and pray.
Pray really really really hard to God that whatever I study will be stuck like how the unwanted gas molecules are stuck in the mucous in our nasal cavity.

something else is troubling me as well…
but I’m not gonna talk too much about it.

love,
jane

Look at these two photos and I’m sure you’ll go awwwww
Haha.
He’s my new baby cousin Zheng yang!

When I went to visit him yesterday,
I could feel my biological clock ticking hahaha.
Oh welll,
Still a long way to go haha.

On the way to church now!
We’ll mug mug mug mug mug mug mug all the way to church! (to the tune of the seven dwarfs song :p )

love,
jane