Kairos Moments – inspired by Dr A.R Bernard

We all have our Kairos moments… that is a season in life when God’s divine favour is on us and everything flows easily and smoothly.
Many of us crave this Kairos moment and are impatient for it to happen but remember this: God calls us out into our Kairos moment from the WILDERNESS.
Indeed, there are times when life just seems tough, when you feel like giving up, like pressing on is not worth it anymore – im going through that right now.

The sudden plunge from a spirit filled atmosphere in SOT back to the lecture theater in school at 8am in the morning where everyone is half awake was a difficult and is still a difficult transition.
Catching up with lectures I’ve missed and not being able to understand when I’ve read through the material again and again often leads me to ask myself “Why are you so stupid?”
The nights when I’m so stressed I can’t fall asleep although my body is so tired.
and like what I told someone.. it’s not that I don’t have enough time to do my work… it is more of the fact that I dont have enough energy when I’ve got the time and when i have the energy I’m often busy with other things and dont have the time to do my work.
Life is a struggle, especially when it comes to maintaining my relationship with God.
When project meetings stretch till 2 and I still wanna do quiet time, when I want to make it a point to have another quiet time in the morning before I prepare for school..
it’s really now, that I have to lean FULLY on God.
I’m humbled because I know that without Him, I wouldn’t even be continuing on this journey.

Wilderness experiences are here to teach us something, to help us grow.
No one ever said that the Christian life is a bed of roses… look at all the Saints. They were MARTYRED for the faith.
It is this time when our true selves, our true attitudes towards God shows..
for me, though the going is tough, I know that it is for God to stretch my capacity, to mold me so that I can be used by Him for a higher calling.
Hence, I choose to praise Him and to praise Him like never before!
and even though my heart is in my “promised land”, I will put 150% effort where I am now.

Which leads me back to the point about the Kairos moment..
God will call us out from our wilderness and lead us into the Kairos moment.
Be patient and wait on Him because God is ALWAYS working for us even when we are asleep.
At this present moment, He is aligning everything for us so that all things will work for us to our Kairos moment.

I’m waiting on Him, on His promises.:)
Join me?

love,
jane

(reflections I received from listening to Dr A.R Bernard this morning:) )

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人生就是我們自己一個人得走的路。在這道路上會有在不同的階段遇到不同的人但我們往往大多數都會一個人流浪。
我們要學會獨立,要學會剛強。
愛人,家人或朋友都沒辦法一直持續的留在我們的身旁所以我們必須要珍惜周圍所有的人。

但我們一個人流浪的時候並不是孤單的。。。
我們的主耶穌一直在我們的身邊握這我們的手,在生命的路程中陪著我們。

祂永遠不會拋棄我們。。。這就是祂對我們的愛。

Love,
Jane

Absence does make the heart grow fonder…
But it also makes the mind wander,
Grows anxiety,
Increases worry
And then there is our good friend doubt.

Human communication can be so complex at times..
What one person does with or without hidden intentions can cause the other party to wonder and ponder over their actions for days…
With the receiving end hoping against all hopes that there is some hidden intention..

Oh boy.

(my neighbour upstairs seems to want to play morse code with me too>.< )

Life:)
But I thank God for everyday and everything that I have.

Love,
Jane

The mirror

Here’s a little truth about me.
I have a pretty low self-esteem…
People may say that im pretty and all but that’s because they havent seen me without makeup on…
The recent pimple outbreak has done it’s damage on me physically but more importantly, emotionally…
It’s plenty discouraging when your mum looks at your face and goes “tsk, what happened?”
Or when your leader comes up to you and says “wow, you really look scary in the morning without make-up on”
People may not think about what they’re saying but those words hurt and those words cut deep.

I know im beautiful in God’s eyes but sometimes when I look in the mirror, I just get a sudden urge to stay home and not go out..

Make-up… Is it a friend or an enemy?
When I didn’t have to put it on all the time, my face was ok and quite radiant… But the moment I had to put it on everyday, my pimples started sprouting like crazy and maybe because I look better in make-up, I start feeling like I look so horrible in actuality without make-up.
Concealer has started to become a good friend… But I really miss the days when I had the confidence to step out of the house without a tinge of make-up on.

I guess it doesn’t help that ppl around me are getting attached or have a significant other chasing them… Me?
I have no one but God.
But I guess that’s enough.

My body is the temple of the Holy Spirit and I really should take care of myself more… Less stress and more beauty sleep.
I know my complexion will get better..
And it’ll happen soon.

Love,
Jane

get it right

What have I done? I wish I could
Away from this ship goin’ under
Just tryin’ to help, hurt everyone
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn’t good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
‘Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

Can I start again with my faith shaken?
‘Cause I can’t go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I’ll get through this

What can you do when your good isn’t good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
‘Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

So I throw up my fist
I will punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn’t fair
Yeah, I’ll send out a wish
Yeah, I’ll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!

What can you do when your good isn’t good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
‘Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

 

love,
jane