141/365 blazing

20 May Sunday


It’s been blazing hot these few days>.< sigh.
On a happier note, 3 MORE DAYS TO TAIWAN WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
:D:D:D been waiting for this all year!



The crossover

I had an awesome cell group meeting today and all of us poured out our feelings to each other.
I feel that our cell group is getting more bonded and united.

We were showed the video of The Crossover project and I was reminded of God’s promise of my destiny in Taiwan.
And He reminded me of His love for me.

I shed many tears tonight, unearthing all my hurts and pouring it out to my cell and Esther.
Sometimes I’ll think that I’m a strong person but behind that strong facade is this extremely insecure girl who just wants to be loved and accepted.
I was just reminded today that God loves me no matter what and that I’ll always be His child and He loves me just the way that I am.
Whether I have pimples or not, am look old, short or fat, have no one wanting me, or whatever, He loves me. He loves me.

This was my fave song as a kid

<Jesus loves me, this I know
for the bible tells me so.
Little ones to Him belong
They are weak but He is strong
Yes Jesus loves me
Yes Jesus loves me
Yes Jesus loves me for the bible tells me so

I guess some of you who don’t know God won’t understand but He brings the peace when you feeling sad and tired, when you feel like you can’t go on anymore, He’s there for you.
Knowing Him also fills that God sized hole in each of our hearts.
He’s the God who loves no matter what.

I used to think that I didn’t have a fantastic testimony of how God saved me like Sun’s testimony or other people’s but now I know, God is writing my story… Of how I grew up in His presence, changed, caught sight of my vision, clung to His feet when the going got so so so so so rough that I thought I would be torn in two.
The story of my journey.
My journey with God.

I’m going to Taiwan on holiday next wed and just as I was thinking about it I went to look at my old blog post about the mission trip to Taiwan last year and something that I had forgotten leaped out at me.
Sandra shared a verse during a devotion at St Luke’s university in Tam Shui and it was

Blessed are those who mourn, For they shall be comforted. (Matthew 5:4 NKJV)

And when we had pair prayer time she said that she felt that that verse was specifically for me. And indeed at that time my heart was mourning that I had to leave Taiwan, my promised land soon… And then when we prayed, I felt God say that “you’ll be back”.

When I thought about this,
It became clear to me that God’s word was true.. I AM GOING BACK THIS YEAR. So I’m really praying that God will show me the destiny He has for my life there. I’m just willing to do His will for my life.

I surrender all and I will follow You, all the days of my life.