It’s the last day of 2012

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It’s the last day of 2012 and I think I’m out to make full use of the day.
Woke up at 4:30am to shower and pack up to head to KENTING!
My dearest Rhema harvest family are bringing us to spend the last day of the year at kenting:)
I can’t think of a better way to spend it.. Except well I guess with you.

Got lost at one point and payed at the same toll 3 times but I still that’s all part of the adventure!:)

As the year is coming to an end…
I just reflected and I really want to thank God.
For everything.
For my family,
For my friends,
For the scholarship,
For coincidences
For experiences
For love. (From people around me)

When I met up with the people from Rhema Harvest yesterday,
All I could do was laugh and smile because my heart was so full of joy!
The temperature was the coldest of the year but I couldn’t feel the cold.
All I could feel was happiness and joy.

I felt so blessed that so many came to spend time with me although they had other commitments!
I’m blessed.
I really am.
And I’m gonna take note to count my blessings.

It is really a blessing from God that I got to know them and be a part of them.
It’s all in God’s planning
And that He knows what’s best for me.

Thank you God:)

No matter what comes my way I’m gonna continue to lean on You.
My fortress and my strength
I’ll let go and let God.

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Love,
Jane

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Sorry to all my readers who cannot understand Chinese!

今天, 在台灣的第四天。
剛到台中站

今天心情平復了許多。
台北,再見了。
我們暫時又要分開了。
暫時又要開始我們的遠距離戀愛。

12:01 就要和可愛的台南見面了。
記憶中好像每次離開台南眼睛都會滴眼淚。
原因;我在台南認識的好朋友。
可愛的瑞瑪豐收教會和它的成員。
好期待,好期待。
已經6個月不見了。
每天都會想你們。
尤其是惠芳姐,小包,以勤,柏宇。
他們四位就像我的家人一斑。我好愛好愛。

但雖然心情平復很多,我的腦海裡還一直浮現著在新加坡的你。
我一定會帶著你一起旅遊的。

下一站,嘉義

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Love,
Jane

又回到台灣了

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今天,是我這次在台灣旅遊的第三天了。
時間真的過得好快。
去了好多以前曾經去過的地方; 再次被台灣這個寶島感動。
我好愛好愛台灣喔。。。
我每次踏到台灣的第一步眼睛都會含淚。

這幾天玩的很愉快,拍了很多的照片,和許多在火車上的台灣人談心。
我真的很快樂。

但這次的感覺真的很不一樣。。。
我無論到哪裡,心裡會有一種掛念新加坡的感覺。
或是挂念一個人吧。
但我真的不敢去相信,不敢說些什麼。。。
心情真的很複雜。。。又好怕是自己獨資的想法。。。
真的好複雜,好複雜。

現在我就帶著這種心情到處在台灣玩。。。
真的沒辦法放下。。。但這也代表我很在乎。
女人呀,女人呀, 你為什麼那麼傻。

我到哪裡,無時無刻都會想到你。
心裡總會呼喚著 “wish you were here”

下一站,西門站。

Love,
Jane

about love

Credits of this photo do not go to me.

I was just thinking about this topic… that of LOVE.
That four letter word that almost everyone craves but many do not dare to admit that they need and want it.

Many girls (and guys for that matter) have long lists about how their perfect partner will be like, what attributes they will have or just how handsome or beautiful they will be..
but at the end of the day,  many will tell you that you can have as long a list as you want but more often than not,
you will end up dating someone who doesn’t fulfill your criteria..

That I believe, is true to a certain extent.
Let’s face it, no one is perfect.
If there was that someone, we would have known about it.
Even the most beautiful actresses have drug habits or smoke.
They can cuss and swear.
Even the most handsome actors or sportsmen, have times when they lose their temper.
And, because no one is perfect, we CANNOT expect that our other half will be..
but that, doesn’t keep us from dreaming about a guy so handsome that he makes you weak in the knees, so gentlemanly and kind, always taking care of your needs…..
in short, romance.
Every girl wants to be treated like a princess by their other half, to be loved and cherished, put in first place, to always be taken care of..
and that sometimes leads to the absurd criteria that we have towards our other half…

I was just pondering about this the other day that I came to this conclusion: that we will never find the perfect guy… (even if we do it’s often impossible for you and the guy to be together.) but we can find the PERFECT GUY for us.
The guy whose flaws you can accept and not get upset over, the guy that you love with your whole heart and not compare him with others. The guy whom you’re willing to take care of and give him your all.
What I think girls look out for is not a guy that is good in all ways, but rather, a guy who if is lacking in knowing how to be gentlemanly and such, will make and effort and be willing to learn how to be gentlemanly, to do things that will not make us upset, to hold us in their arms if we are upset, to be there for us…
Similarly, we as girls cannot just expect to receive and give nothing back in return but in fact, we have to care for the guy, not make unreasonable demands, care for his family, not nitpick at everything, to also be their pillar of support in their down times just like they are for us.

Love is give and take…
and loving someone is to accept them for who they are.
We must learn to never ever take the person who loves us for granted… it would be a shame if we only learnt how to cherish after we have lost.

I remember how at one of my friend’s wedding, the pastor mentioned this very important thing..
That love means doing whatever the other person likes and spending quality time together..
Like for example, if the girl’s favourite past time is shopping, the guy cannot just say that “ok, I’ll drop you off and come back to pick you later”… or that “ok, I’ll wait for you at Starbucks”. Love is you actually following your wife and girl friend into the shops and giving her sincere opinions if she asks for it.. cause when she does that she actually really wants your say in her life..
Before you guys flame me and say what about guys????? I shall also say that the pastor also mentioned that if the guy’s favourite past time is to play computer games then the girl can also attempt to pick up the game even though she may not like it.. because this is showing love.
Even if the wife really loathes the game, she should also spend quality time with her husband by being in the same room as him and well maybe watch him play?
In short, spending quality time together doing each other’s favourite activities.

Your spouse or your boyfriend/girlfriend should be your bestfriend.
The one you can confide in about everything.
The one whom you should be truthful with (in that way all the melodrama from korean/taiwanese/hong kong dramas would be non-existent causing viewers that much less angst.)
The one whom you should tell about everything first.
A relationship and a marriage doesn’t only take love..
That is only the beginning as well as the foundation.
A relationship and a marriage takes work. Loads of it. From both parties.
Take time to go back to your first love with your spouse or bf/gf time and time again.
Bask in the joy of having someone who loves you.

To end off,
here’s a very familiar bible passage…

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

These are just some thoughts of mine… so please dont flame!

love,
jane

Blackbird singing in the dead of night.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free

Blackbird fly, blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night
Blackbird fly, blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

this song has somehow been stuck in my head since yesterday…
thought I’d share it:)

the song, lyrics and picture all do not belong to me!!

love,
jane

 

My grandmother

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Today,
I wanna talk about my grandmother… my maternal grandma that is:)
This is one of the few photos I have with her… taken today:D
and I love that she knows how to smile when I tell her that we are taking a photo!:D

Being one of the youngest in my extended family (until the 3 bundles of joy came along)
I never had a really close relationship with my grandmother.
My only memories of her were really her feeding me biscuits every week when we would go and visit her.
By the time I even had memories of her, she was already getting old.
That, is my only regret.

As far as I know, my grandmother led a hardworking life as a farmer in a kampong in Lim Chu Kang with my grandfather
They planted papaya and stuff (can’t remember the stories lol.)to sell.
Life wasn’t easy but they made do and brought up a family of 6 children.

My mum is the second youngest and youngest daughter hence she had better education and such, which I really feel thankful for.
This really allowed our family to be better off and have more opportunities in life!
But I digress.

My grandmother always showed love to me and my cousins.
It seemed to me like we were her pride and joy, her precious babies.
Of course, I could never ask her that in words since I only know a smattering of hokkien.
My older cousins had a closer relationship with her.
My grandmother would always ensure that we were fed and watered whenever we were at her house.
It seemed like a treasure trove full of goodies!
So basically when we were young, it would be play with the cousins and eat, play and eat, play and eat.

As time went by, all of us started to grow up and so did my grandmother.
She started becoming a bit slower, started not being able to recognise all of us…
It was then that I looked at her and realised that she had really grown old…

a couple of years back in year 1 sem 1, I got a notice that my grandma was diagnosed with an illness when I was in Cambodia..
I remember that I was filled with fear that time that I wouldnt be able to see her when I got back..
scared that I couldnt be there for her…
regret that I hadnt built up my relationship with her…
Thankfully, she was ok.

A few months later when she had to go for surgery, I remember being there with my mum and aunt and holding her hand before the surgery..
She was so scared and confused… and didnt know what to do..
I was so sorry for her to be in so much fear..
Yet, my grandmother is a fighter…
She came out of everything ok.

You know, living as an Asian, you normally do not see your parents or grandparents for that matter showing much affection for each other..
like not much of hand holding or kissing in public..
So i never really felt that my grandparents had a very strong relationship.
Boy was I wrong!
When my grandmother was in hospital recovering from surgery, my uncle ferried my grandfather to visit my grandmother in the afternoon and he would stay there till dinner time and had to be coaxed to go for dinner cause he couldnt understand why my grandmother couldnt eat with him.
My granddad would not say anything but just sit there next to her.
Some days when my uncle couldnt ferry my granddad, he would still dress up and get ready to go, not knowing that he wasnt meant to go…
When I heard that, I was so touched!
I want a relationship like that… that is so strong and lasting through the years.

My grandmother, is a very important part of my family..
She is so cute!
Although she mostly cannot recognise me (though I think she does) and I cant really communicate with her…
I love just sitting beside her and letting her hold my hand.

Family matters…
and I wish everybody would know that.

love,
jane

 

Sentosa with loves:)

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everyone, say hello to my new lens, the olympus 17mm f2.8.
I got it free!:D:D:D

It all happened to be a blessing from God and luck of timing cause the day I decided to get my Olympus pen ep3 was the day that Olympus pushed out its Christmas promotion!
I think if you buy an Olympus Pen Ep3 from registered dealers in Singapore (the set comes with the standard 14-42mm kit lens) you will get a free additional battery and the 17mm f2.8.
It is really good for portrait shots!
For an amateur like me that is!
I read many reviews online detailing how the edges of the pictures were not sharp but I tried it today and I think the bokeh is good enough to make me weak in the knees! Haha.
Love the speed and the picture quality.
The best thing is: IT IS FREE!
I still want to  invest in the Olympus 45mm f1.8. That will be a really good portrait lens for an amateur level..
and honestly speaking, you can use these prime lenses for scenery shots too!
I love the fact that it is so small and compact and the fact that I do not have to unlock the lens!
Think this means that I’d not get the Panasonic 20mm f.17 since im satisfied with the 17mm.
The cost of the Pan 20mm f1.7 is in the range of SGD500+++ It is really quite expensive for a micro 4/3rds lens!!!!

So if anyone is interested, I’ll attach the facebook link of MS colour the shop I bought from. They are based in Ang Mo Kio but their prices are really good!
You can private message them to get a quote!
https://www.facebook.com/mscolorservice

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taken with the kit lens

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first picture I took with the 17mm f2.8.! See Rx prod cast! I do bring your present every where I go!:D

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trying out the lens…
I am so sorry if I invaded your privacy>.<

So anyway, after I collected my free lens and battery, I headed down to Vivo to meet the two girls!:D
Sheryl and Lisa:D
We headed to Sentosa, Siloso beach after that!
(We had planned and failed to go so many times! It always rained….)
The sun was nice and bright today!:D
We managed to get about an hour of nice weather before it rained!

prepare for an extremely picture heavy post!

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the three of us:D
Me, lisa and sheryl:)

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hahaha Lisa and I started to play with this playmobil thing while Sheryl was off getting her Slurpee from 7-11!

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this picture is just to make Nic Wong happy that I take pictures of scenery and things other than myself.LOL.

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we found a fountain and decided to take pictures with it:D
the water was nice and cooling!

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love the quality of the photos!

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island life! Love it!

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we found a cool shady spot to lay our mats and we sat there to have our lunch from subway! The turkey bacon melt.. I felt it was ok! HAHA.

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“the sun in my eyes and the world at my feet”

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all playing with their phones hahaha.

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Lisa said that I looked very natural and model-like. Hahaha. I guess that means that I naturally lean on trees!:D or lean on poles and stuff lol.
LEAN ON MEEEEEEE!

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one of my personal fave shots!
Doesnt she look good here?:)

I must apologise for the slightly over-exposed shots cause SILLY ME was wearing shades and i forgot that that would affect my visual judgement>.<

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washing away our troubles…

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another fave of mine! LISA IS SO PRETTY!:D

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i thought I looked funny here.. like awkward lol. with the rubbish at my feet…
it started to rain so we headed to the large pavilion on Siloso beach!
Sat there for probably half an hour to HTHT but it was difficult with primary school kids running around and workers dragging lockers in place for Zouk Out which is happening tomorrow!

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me, lisa and sheryl<3<3<3

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🙂

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later we headed back to Vivo and went looking for earrings for Lisa’s mum and after she left,
Sheryl and I headed to the petshop at Vivo (suddenly cant remember the name of the place>.< )
WHERE I GOT TREATS FOR FLUFFY WHOM I AM MEETING NEXT WEEK.

and then we went to coo over all the puppies!!!
I really want a dog in future…
I know it’s sad and heartbreaking when they die but to have a friend so loyal is really something that is so hard to come by…
But we’ll see… maybe I’ll just end up keeping Chinchillas:)

Headed home after that and had dinner at the same ole place at JE.
Met my primary school friend Darrell and had a nice 5 min talk hahaha.

Mummy called me when I was at Sentosa and I think I may be heading to Beijing if it is okay with my cousin…. we’ll see!:D

love,
jane